It Happened, but he's OK!!!!

Every parents' worst nightmare. We've all heard about it. . . that late night phone call. Well mine came. Two thirty in the morning on Monday, the phone rings. It is Adam (who was with Travis at the Christmas party we had all attended earlier) he was in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. They had an accident. He assured me they were both alright. I asked if I could talk to Travis and was told he had a "thing" over his face, but I could hear the attendant saying "he's alright". They were going to Katy hospital. Jim and I get dressed, find directions to Katy hospital and drive there. All the way, I'm thinking of all the things I don't know. I don't know anything. I don't know how to get to the hospital, I don't know what shape they will be in, I don't know if there was more than one car involved, I just don't know!!! Well we get there and find Adam standing in his stocking feet in the emergency room. He seems fine. He doesn't know what happened. He had gone to sleep and woke up in a ball in the floor board. Travis has been taken for x-rays and we wait. Adam's family arrive. Adam has a small cut on the back of his head and bruises from the seat belt on his neck. And we wait. . . and wait. . . and wait, for what seems to be an eternity. A state trooper arrives and talks to Adam. He tells us they ran into the back of a semi truck, then flipped over and skidded about 200 to 300 feet on the top of the car. Oh God! I'm not sure knowing is better. I go back into the emergency room and he is back from x-ray and talking to the officer. My first sight of him. He looks okay too. He has dried blood on his face and his hands are badly scraped and cut, shoulders are scraped and cut, but he seems okay. There is a bad bruise on the top of his forehead and he is a little dizzy when he sits up so they do a cat scan. All tests come back normal and they proceed to clean and dress his wounds and we leave the hospital about 6:30.

We begin the calls. Family, insurance, tow company etc. When Adam finds where the car is Jim and Travis go out to get any loose items that are still there. Adam didn't have his keys, cell phone, shoes, jacket. The car is an amazing tangle of metal. It is a true miracle that two people got out of that wreck with only minor injuries!!!! Thank you God, for not taking them today!

I am an emotional wreck. My Mother lost a son in a car wreck. I'm glad it didn't happen to me.
I am so grateful for the miracle of the event and yet can't step far enough out of the fear to stop tearing up.

This mornings lesson from A Course In Miracles is "I could see peace instead of this". How's that for timing? YES I can see peace in this. I can see that "miracles are natural, when they do not occur, something has gone wrong". I can see that God means all things for good. I can see that our journey is a planned event, not a chaotic wandering. There are lessons in this for all of us, and Travis has assured me he has learned his first one, and that it will never happen again. I'm sure my lessons will continue to arrive also. For now, I am just so grateful. THANK YOU GOD!! We'll all be okay!

Resignation

I am hereby tendering my resignation as General Manager Of The Universe, effective immediately. This action is long over due. I am not an effective manager, in fact most people did not even know I was the Manager. Decision making has never been one of my strong suits, so most of my duties consisted of incessant rethinking, rehashing, "if only"s (as in if only I had thought of, or done, or said that, or they would do this, or she could think of that, or he would only stop that, or they would just wake up), Second guessing, (I know, redundant!), constantly looking for clarity, and ever increasing amazement at people's choices. See, this is not a very fun job. There is no pay, no atta girl's, no vacations, no days off, no perks. Only one benefit. I was always right. (not very pretty, but there it is)

It's a wonder ANYONE would do this job. . . and YET. . . I know many others who are currently holding down this job in relative obscurity, toiling away, keeping the universe in balance so we don't go spinning off into some cold black hole. We all owe them a great debt of gratitude, and I will continue to applaud their stamina, but for myself, I QUIT!!!!! I am too old for this sort of thing. At 56, I'm pretty sure I am more than half way through my life. :) So I plan to spend the rest of it actually living it. That means when I begin to think about some past event or someone else's current situation, as I'm sure I still will, old habits die hard after all, I will remind myself that this is no longer my job. I have resigned. . . maybe retired is a better word. Yes, I have retired! Now I will endeavor to stay in the present moment in my own journey. Wish me luck in my new adventure. You'll have to take my word for this, but I really have earned it. A Course In Miracles poses the question "Would you rather be right or happy?". Well, I'm giving up right and choosing happy. EVERY TIME !!! I feel better already!

God loves you, and so do I